Clementine:I'm not a concept, Joel. I'm just a (messed) up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. I'm not perfect.

Joel: I can't think of anything I don't like about you right now.

Clementine: But you will. You will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.

Joel: Okay.

Clementine: Okay.

So I went to the library the other day - in search of intellectual stimulation. Funny how when I don't have school and I don't have to read anything - I want to read anything in sight. But anyways I found the shooting script for Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Score. I'm always curious about the writers of films and how it looked on paper and how it got from the paper to the screen. I just love the process and seeing how all the people involved make something from someone's creation that they put on paper. I'm always curious who was the genious that made it all work together or if there were many geniuses - if the script was not so great but the director was fabulous or if the director and script were not so great but the actors made it come alive or if the line they said really was in the script or if they improvised.

Anyway - I love Michel Gondry so here is my promised tribute to him. I won't say much he is a genius. I already wrote an 8-10 page paper on the movie but I could've kept going. It's such a brilliant concept - the writing, the editing, the cinematography. I said something about how they used orange and blue (complimentary colors) throughout the movie in my paper and my TA liked that and he used it in lab when we talked about costumes and set design. Cool eh? It's such a complicated high concept plot but they made it work and I'm just blown away. I see something new everytime I see it - brilliance. The script came with an interview with Charlie Kaufman. I think he's brilliant - I'm not saying I like all his stuff but he's very talented. It was cool to talk about how he tried to make it real and how he devised the voiceovers and intersecting plots. Kaufman did an experiement with his wife. He taped them talking at a restaurant and then they both listened to it later and talked about what they were thinking or feeling about at the time and how their perceptions differed.

I also found a book called "Careers for kids who like writing." It was a whim but I couldn't put it down. There was an occupational survey - I checked all of the writing ones like - reading everything in sight, interviewing people, writing down stories your grandparents told when they were young (I found my grampa's journal and it was empty and I was so sad.), write in a journal about all your secret thoughts and ideas and lastly hangs around bookstores and libraries - my mom has said that I spend so much time at Barnes and Noble that I should get a job there and I practically lived at the HBLL.

So I'm a writer - so what. I remember when I got into the playwriting program at BYU and then I took TMA 114, Narrative Structures with Eric Samuelson. We watched Hunger, this old Black and white Norwegian film about this crazy desperate starving writer. It scared me so bad, especially since my Dad had just quit his job. My internal monologue - "Run away! Run away!" So I did advertising - a great place for competitive copywriters with ADD. Either way, I still don't have a job.